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Author: Nyah T

Performing Love: A Breakdown of Lorde’s “Favorite Daughter”

In “Favorite Daughter,” a song from Lorde’s 2025 album Virgin, Lorde writes about her identity and how it’s been molded into something she is not quite familiar with yet. She talks about her mother and her fans, and how they both tie into who she is today. Lorde reflects on her time dealing with the emotional pressures of seeking approval from both her mother and fans, and reminisces about her life from a place of exhaustion and yearning, accepting that she has shaped herself into someone she does not recognize to receive love and admiration. The central idea of the song is that performing for someone else’s love can misshapen your own sense of self.

Lorde doesn’t blatantly tell us this message, but rather implies it through multidimensional language and literary techniques – like a poem!

First, Lorde used an extended metaphor of performance as a way to employ her message of how performing for someone’s love can cause emotional baggage on yourself. In the chorus she repeats “‘Cause I’m an actress, all of the medals I won for ya/Panic attack just to be your favourite daughter,” and at the end, “Breaking my back just hoping you’ll say I’m a star.” When Lorde describes herself as an “actress” winning “medals,” she puts a picture in our minds that she is on a stage performing for an applause, but emotionally she is somewhere else. She is thinking about how much she had to sacrifice to get to this point in her life, something that is not directly said through the lyrics. The metaphor broadens her identity and shows us that who she seems to be is not who she actually is, but instead is a persona- someone putting on an act to become your “favorite daughter.”

Another way Lorde uses multidimensional language is through the contrasting imagery of her public and private lives. She mentions how “plane[s] take off,” and how the “room fills up with/People who are convinced I’m not,”  revealing the constant noise and scrutiny that she faces while in the public eye. These images create a picture of experiencing fame, crowds, and the pressure of being watched. In contrast, her private life lines like “I tell myself that soon we’ll talk,” and “I’ll sing every word just to ya” create a sense of quiet and longing for a real connection. This juxtaposition visually shifts us from the overwhelming public to private moments, but also layers in the idea that the expectations of others conflict with her own desire for authenticity. 

To end, through the song, Lorde is singing to an audience. She is singing to “you,” but who is “you?” It is not blatantly revealed who she is referring to, but the choice of the word “you” helps guide the emotional direction of the song. In my opinion, “you” is supposed to represent the listeners and fans, but also her mother, whom she viewed as an idol growing up (fun fact!). Her choice of the word “you” frames it as a complexity that she intends to uncover, reinforcing the theme of unclear boundaries between performing for yourself versus others.

When I think of music poetry, I think of Lorde. So many of her songs can be broken down and interpreted rather than just being “surface-level” music. In my opinion, this song directly aligns with another on the album, “Shapeshifter,” in which Lorde also discusses her continually changing identity.

Haunted By The Past

A big idea that has resurfaced for me through my reading of Beloved by Toni Morrison has been how psychological trauma continues to radiate in our lives, even if the traumatic event is over.

Sethe’s traumas from the past don’t just disappear, even if she escaped from the plantation she was sold to. Her traumas linger and consistently pop up in her daily life (shown through countless flashbacks), regardless of her “freedom.” So, is she truly free?

Free from the long days and nights at Sweet Home, sure, but not free from her aches of the psychological trauma that came with it. The memories of what Sethe endured continue to haunt her, shaping how she thinks, acts, and gives and receives love. Every interaction she has with Denver, or Paul D, or even Beloved, is an interaction dulled by her suffering.

The flashbacks that Sethe frequently try to suppress only make the memories stronger. What might this say about our own lives? In my opinion, it shows us that the more we try to bury our trauma, the more it will take over out lives. As I continue reading, I wonder how might Sethe’s recurring memories of her enslavement and the supernatural feel of the book tie into her life.

Morrison beautifully demonstrates that trauma does not simply end when physical freedom is gained, but is carried with you for the rest of your life.

In my opinion, Beloved,  (the book itself), serves as a jarring reminder that as much as slavery may be overlooked, we as a society must remind ourselves of the immense pain people went through beyond the physical aspects.

Playing Therapist For Nadia & Saeed

So far, reading Exit West by Mohsin Hamid has kept me engaged and truly interested in the story of Nadia and Saeed. In each chapter, there has been something new! Seeing how Nadia and Saeed have gotten to know each other despite their hardships has been pleasant and definitely lightens up the read in the first few chapters, where the two are still living through the war in their hometown.

My personal interpretation of the book may be a bit of a hot take— and especially since I don’t know where the book is going, so take it with a grain of salt.

The book shines a light on something many people struggle to understand: society struggles to accept an independent woman.

Throughout the book, Saeed has struggled to accept Nadia’s unconventional lifestyle, especially in the later chapters when he compares her to the other people they end up living around. It may be a subconscious thing for him, but wondering why she doesn’t abide to social norms like the other women in whichever country they may be in is something that reflects a deeper societal resistance to female autonomy. In Saeed’s eyes, Nadia’s independence appears as an alienating force.

It is known that Nadia and Saeed’s relationship becomes strained and weary, and I believe this is why. Their love, which blossomed during a war, is slowly being torn apart not by the outside world but by Saeed’s need for convention and Nadia’s desire for freedom.

In my opinion, Nadia’s independence and desire for exploration is admirable, especially after all of the conflict she has faced in her hometown. Her love for Saeed is real, but is not her identity.

Saeed is entitled to his opinions and so is Nadia. Ideally they would have talked about their wants considering they’re about to start a whole new life in a whole new country…but 🤷‍♀️

Their conflicting wants serve as a reminder that you are allowed to feel your feelings no matter the situation. Personal desires and internal struggles continue even when you’re fighting for survival. Hamid works to show us that displacement is not just about losing your home, but is about displacement within your identity and personal connections.

The Silent Epiphany

Meursault’s epiphany on existence is not only shown through his sudden outburst to the chaplain, but can also be seen in a structural shift itself.

In Chapter 2 of Part 2 of The Stranger, the structure of the paragraphs shifts from frustration-to-longing to a frustration-to-acceptance writing style, which helps us understand Meursault’s epiphany about the absurdity of existence.

At the beginning of chapter 2, when Meursault said he felt his “life coming to a standstill (72)”, he went on to explain that he was tormented by his desires for women, cigarettes, and to be on the beach. His desires for physical reward are what I believe Camus deems as meaningless in a world that is indifferent to one’s needs.

 

The true challenge of human existence is the idea that people may search for  life’s meaning their entire lives, but nothing will come out of it due to the absurdity of the world. When you choose to accept the absurdity of life itself, you will achieve genuine freedom from the chase of a socially constructed purpose, even if others may not accept it.

Meursault develops this idea in the sense that his indifference to the world is, in a way, how Meursault accepts the universe’s meaningless purpose and allows for a greater sense of individuality than other people. He did not seek out a purpose in his life but rather accepted that things would happen inevitably, such as death.

His acceptance and indifference towards what others deem is “meaningful” to life backfires when in court he is seen as “emotionless” and “insane,” both socially constructed ideas.

His views on life have caused unrest in other people’s lives, but not his own. It only leads to his death, something Meursault sees as inevitable. Why this fate?

In my opinion, Camus decided to make Meursault’s fate an execution as a way to show how social constructs people have confirmed to may not align with your thinking, but it is when you accept your thinking that you achieve freedom.

At the end of the day (or night, for Meursault), and when you can think back on your life, you will not think about the FRUSTRATION/longing, but you will think about your FRUSTRATION/questioning. Questioning your decisions you made in your life will bring you no satisfaction. The only satisfaction and purpose that will come out of your life will be defined off of what accepted as the truth, not questioning it’s reasons.

Theories on Meursault!

Throughout my reading of The Stranger,  initially, it shocked me how Meursault seemed to not be grieving his mother’s death. When at his mother’s funeral, all he could focus on was the sun and heat, and not that his mother was dead. I was confused as to why it seemed like he thought that death was such a superficial thing, which left me questioning Meursault’s morals.

The more I read, I realized that Meursault isn’t a “bad” person; he just views things differently.

I think that Meursault believes that life “just keeps going,” which is mentioned when he talked to Raymond. “Then he explained that he’d heard about Maman’s death but that it was one of those things that was bound to happen sooner or later. I thought so too (33).” If this is true, it may explain why Meursault is in such a rush to get Maman’s funeral over with (“I don’t know why we waited so long before getting under way (15).”), which is definitely unusual for someone whose mother just died.

Another little thought that I have is that  when Meursault’s internal monologue  goes into deep detail on “the little things,” (like when he is explaining what he sees on the street, “The sky was clear but dull above the fig trees lining the street. On the sidewalk across the way the tobacconist brought out a chair (22),…etc.) that he is just living in the moment. I think all of this explains why he seems to not be grieving his mother’s death-he is living in the moment of the present day.

What are your theories?

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